vermont

July 1, 2005
Windom, New Hampshire
Youth Storm NE, Foster’s house

My journey continues. Through the weekend I will be in New Hampshire, Boston, and will get to Washington DC on Sunday.

Vermont was not what I expected. I anticipated more laughter. Not that I was extremely disappointed or anything, it just didn’t hold the punch of fun I was hoping for. A lot changes in 2 years. That is a no-brainer I guess.

I experienced Jesus in a way I haven’t seen or felt him in a really long time. That was very nice, needless to say. It was good to see old friends and to meet new people too. I must say I really do love Vermont, and I wonder what future the Lord has for me there.

So I woke up this morning with a nasty headache, nausea, and cramps, not a fun combo. Then when I got up I went to the bathroom to blow my nose and as I was merely blowing my nose, my back went out. Not fun. So I am still pretty uncomfortable even though it is not as bad as it was this morning. I couldn’t ‘t believe the combo. I had a glimmering moment of the thought that maybe there was some resistance to me continuing my journey. Come to think of it there were quite a few strange things that happened while in VT.

I was able to escape to one of my favorite places in the earth, the river in Mendon, VT, just up Route 4, it was beautiful! Under a canopy of light translucent green trees and dark comforting conifers. I took 2 rolls of pictures and have yet to develop them…I hope a few turn out. I did a lot of experimenting. I sat next to the voice of the river and missed my friends who are now all scattered abroad, never to return to the same city in which I now live.

I guess I don’t know what is happening on this trip or why I am even on it in the first place, all I know is that I am on it. I have wanted to write much more then I have, but traveling takes a lot out of me, and there are so many people to catch up with, although I am at my friends’ house and I am in the other room typing this.

So in the midst of all of this too, I found time to read a book, and I have begun to have my perspective change about some things, relationships in my life. Wondering about the faithfulness of God in certain aspects of my journey, scared, terribly scared that I have much more responsibility about them than I maybe should be taking. But I am not sure about that either. I may have more thoughts on that later.

I feel as though this is not a very well written update, and so I do apologize, and hope that at some point I will have another moment of inspiration to creatively process my heart in the present moments.

My love to you, pray for me to not be so tasty to Mosquitoes…